189. Lust Doesn’t Last

We strive not to get too attached

Trying to ignore than lust doesn’t last

Seems the norm is to be detached

Wanting to numb the pain left by the past

Lots of closets try to hold skeletons

We hide behind superficial standards

Placing more emphasis on genitals

Instead of the heart, we have it backwards

Aesthetics count more than intelligence

Ripped bods seem to matter more than manners

To have someone love your core from within

You don’t always have to expose your skin

The right person will make it their goal

To embrace the wonder of your soul

Believe it or not, you truly deserve

To have someone get lost in your universe

©️ Mar 23, 2018

188. Perfect Body

I lack a fit body, I know it’s tough

To be into someone who’s not really buff

Don’t touch my tummy with my extra fluff

I sometimes wonder, “Am I truly enough?”

I work so hard for the “perfect body”

To be wanted, is that a guarantee?

Will eating right and drinking some green tea

Be sufficient so you can accept me?

I know I’ll make you laugh and treat your right

I’ll focus only on you through the night

I’m not a model but give me a chance

Might Ieave you feeling like you’re in a trance

©️ Nov 12, 2017

187. Like A Snake

Connections could be made on a telephone screen

But to maintain them, you gotta look up and see

Staring at a bright light in your palm, best believe

You'll miss out on life if you walk like a zombie

Giving attention to random chats when I’m  here

You’d rather pursue a trick who seems to be near

Some will only want to see me for my mistakes

Looking the other way to the progress I’ve made

So-called “friends” gossip behind my back like a snake

Leaving me feeling lost, hurt, alone, and betrayed

They don’t check up on me but they share my business

Ignoring the true definition of a friend

Talked shit about others but Snapchat their time with them

Don’t forget, karma makes her appearance in the end

You’ve shared with me your secrets, I know the real you

Can’t BS me, I can tell when you’re fake or true

©️ Feb 18, 2018

186. Emerged From Ashes

Next to you, I felt I was on Cloud Nine

Believed our destinies were intertwined

Never imagined we could’ve ended

But that’s exactly where we were headed

Found myself falling quick, crashed hard and burned

Since then, so many lessons have been learned

I was blindsided, felt so destroyed, lost, and broken

Little did I know it was a pivotal moment

Through self-destructive behaviors I tried to mourn

Life was forever changed, a philosophy was born

From destruction, pain, grief, desolation, and weakness

A philosophy emerged from ashes called Rogue Phoenix

Pushing forward while feeling like a failure

Couldn’t have imagined that five years later

I’d be standing embracing the start of spring

Starting the Zodiac cycle under a fire sign

Coincidence? In the universe there’s no such thing

The legendary bird of fire rose so divine

True love exists and it can still be attained

In 2018, it can still be obtained

After half a decade and dozens of writings

Wanting to offer others some sort of guidance

Opening up through a Story of Lessons

Trying to connect with those facing depression

©️ Mar 20, 2018

185. Come Home

Too many guys trying to act like little boys

Acting up, playing games, treating others like toys

Life is short, so I don’t know where they find the time

To waste your time when I would treat you like a dime

You caught my eye so I’m compelled to treat you right

I won’t sneak away in the middle of the night

Temptations abound but I won’t leave you alone

At the end of the day I’ll always come home

There’s never a dull moment with you, I’m not bored

I’ll make sure you feel appreciated & adored

Seems so many people tend to take but not give

Way too quick to judge and jump ship but not forgive 

My attraction towards you is much more beyond lust

Wouldn’t do anything to lose your precious trust

I wouldn’t hide you, I’d make us publicly known

You wouldn’t face struggles all on your own

©️ Mar 19, 2018

184. What Are We?

I wonder what hurt you to the point

That sincerity makes you withdraw

Doing my best to not disappoint

It scares you that I offer my all

I touch your cheek with a gentle touch

For now, I know I can’t offer much

Be patient, stick with me for a bit

I hope, I’m begging you to commit

Looking on, I began to shed those tears

As I knew, deep down, that my darkest fears

Were becoming a sad reality

I hoped we would achieve stability

I can tell by the twinkle in your eye

That you can tell I’m the exception

I’m awkward & sweet, not your random guy

You know I consider you pure perfection

I mean what I say, I don’t hide with lies

You feel overwhelmed by my affections

My transparency isn’t a disguise

Your fears win as I’m met with rejection

I don’t wanna ask but I feel I have to

What are we? Where is this headed?

Are there others or is it just us two?

We’re ending just exactly like I dreaded

©️ Mar 18, 2018

183. Lose Ourselves

Lemme hold you from behind and not say anything

A firm squeeze is enough with a gentle embrace

Take a deep sigh, relax, in my arms you’re my king

Want acceptance and freedom? You’re in the right place

I’ll slowly and gently kiss the back of your neck

With me, you can feel complete instead of a wreck

There’s no one else in the world I’d want more than you

Let’s shut the world out, lose ourselves within us two

©️ Feb 16, 2018

182. Reinvent Yourself

You’re bound to deal with the unexpected

Facing moments when you feel rejected

It’s never easy when you’re neglected 

By those you loved deeply and respected

When you’re dealing with unprecedented

Situations, know you’re being tested

You reach a point where you feel compelled

To create something out of nothing

Find a way to reinvent yourself

Rising from the ashes, so stunning

Current methods just ain’t cutting it

You want to be real, not a hypocrite

Risk stepping out and being called stupid

Try out new ways, end up looking foolish

One life to live, be sure to make it count

Don’t be held back by fears, worry, or doubt

©️ Feb 2, 2018

181. Give Me Everything

To earn your trust, I know I’ll have to work hard

You’re safe with me, so you can let down your guard

Life is short and tomorrow isn’t promised

Which is why my words & actions will be honest

You can trust that I won’t take your heart for granted

As the years pass by, you’ll remain my life anthem

I promise you that if you give me everything

Not a day will pass that I won’t treat you like a king

I don’t have to wait until I give you a ring

To pledge that I’ll stay by your side through anything

I’d like you to be a permanent fixture 

In my life, looking at the bigger picture

You help make things go from negative to positive

Something about you inspires me to be creative

In displaying my affection and respect towards you

Doing what I can to help you feel good and be true

©️ Mar 11, 2018

180. Rejection Builds Resilience

Not every door you knock is meant to be opened

Push forward with a hopeful heart until the very end

If it doesn’t work the first time, try it again

If things still don’t work out, then try to comprehend

There’s something greater & better that lies ahead

Keep the faith, there’s something to be gained from the pain

Let rejection build resilience

Tough events help shape your confidence

Trials test if you’re really serious

Growth only comes by experience

What’s meant to be yours no one can take

Fight against doubts, give your mind a break

Maybe it’s not time for fulfillment

Big dreams require genuine commitment

Sacrificess must be made to level up

It takes time for character to develop

©️ Mar 8, 2018