142. The App, Pt 3

I’m dealing with another heartbreak 

With a fuckboy that’s a disappointment

Not enough men, too many petty boys

That try to play me like one of their toys

I toss and turn in the middle of the night

Thinking what I could say or do to make it right

While you chat and Grind with a bunch of different guys

Debating which one you’ll choose to spend the night

I’ve been taken advantage of, been lied to

Wasted time, effort, energy, money too

Strangers don’t have to work hard to catch your attention

I’m here lovestruck believing that you’re pure perfection

© Oct 19, 2017

141. Earn Your Trust

I may not say it but I really notice you

If you're away, I hate to say that I miss you

Next time we meet up, I'll pounce on you and kiss you

Every minute I spend with you seems so blissful

Let’s slowly grow from “you and me” to “us”

I’ll step up to the plate to earn your trust

I might end up saying some crazy shit

And the worse part is that I’ll mean it

I'm doomed if I speak that three-lettered phrase

I can’t help myself, it’s how I was raised

Your beauty leaves me in awe and amazed

I love you so much, my heart is ablaze 

©️ Nov 9, 2017

140. Fall Into Place

You see pieces of the puzzle, not the whole picture

Not quite sure what to expect from the near future

Things will fall into place and happen as they should 

Going through trials are meant for your own good

Things will get tough before they get better

Hold on to hope, refuse to surrender

You’ll rise like the Phoenix from the ashes

Fulfill your purpose with fiery passion

© Nov 11, 2017

139. Nuestros Mundos

Nunca he parado de soñar

No hay razón porque llorar

Al final, aquí sigo de pie

No dudes, contigo seré fiel

Dame una oportunidad

Para encontrar felicidad

Tomar el tiempo entre los dos

De explorar nuestros mundos

No importa lo que pase, mi Bonbonsito

Al final del dia, eres todo mío

Soy todo tuyo, no lo dudes

Mis pensamientos tu invades

© Aug 19, 2017

138. Dark Clouds

Before heading out, fake a smile as a disguise

Cover up the inner storm that underneath lies

Pain and rejection are what make up those gray skies

Dark clouds created by disappointments and lies

I'm screaming so loud that no one can hear me

Once again wrestling with Anxiety

Struggling to loosen the grip of Despair

Fighting against Fear and Doubt, a dangerous pair

What do I seek? What do I really want?

I think I know but I fear I really don’t

Late at night, my pillow is my confidant

I’m done wasting time scrolling through my phone

It feels I have nowhere to go to escape

This mental war that seems to erupt daily

I’m determined to change my inner landscape

So I won’t stay down like I have been lately

© June 4, 2011 / Oct 28, 2017

137. Feelings Run Deep

Once everything is said and done

I hope to be your only one

50 years later, I’m still here

We made it together, my dear

Since my passion flows freely

I get jealous easily

Only ‘cause my feelings run deep

I can’t help it, that’s just me

Your dark fears won’t push me away

I’m here at the end of the day

Here I stand right next to your side

Leave behind your ego and pride

© Oct 12, 2017

136. Impulse

We tend to close our eyes right before we kiss

Maybe it's to forget who we truly miss

The one we'd lose ourselves in the abyss

But now, while pissed off, we’d be inclined to diss

I'm led by my drunken impulse

My tongue on your neck checks your pulse 

Heartbeat's accelerating, I wonder why

Do you like what you're feeling? Tell me, don't lie

In the midst of the flashing lights, you stand out

Holding you close to me, I have no fear or doubt

That, at the end of the night, we'll figure it out

Let’s go with the flow and feel each other out

We're acting a little sloppy, far from neat

As we forget the world and dance to the beat

© Aug 3, 2017

135. Arriésgate

Me quiero perder en tu mirada

No solo por una temporada 

No me intimidan tus heridas

Quiero ayudarte para que sean sanadas

Cuando te veo, no puedo controlarme

Arriésgate y atrévete a amarme

Si te gusta lo que sientes, ven y abrázame

No te detengas, se que quieres besarme

Sin duda, estoy mas que seguro

Eres especial, te lo juro

Te prometo no hay nada mejor

Que tu dulce y tierno amor

© Oct 12, 2017

134. FML

I turned to my side so I could hold you tight

FML, I was only dreaming tonight

5:00 am, I’m wishing that my fantasy

Would translate into a reality

So far away, I can only imagine

Sharing a life with you, we could’ve had it

You’re my worst obsession, my bad habit

Feening for your warm touch like some drug addict

I hate the fact that you’re so far away

Distance won’t be an obstacle someday

I miss you so much so I fall asleep

I can be with you again in my dreams

© Oct 8, 2017